Picture in your mind a New Years Eve filled with dancing, laughter, drinking, fireworks... A New Years Eve celebration to remember ringing in the new year with joy, merriment, and anticipation for what's to come.
Now picture the scene from Dr. Seuss's How the Grinch Stole Christmas where he's sucking up all of the gifts, food, decorations, trees, and laughing like a maniac back up to the top of his cold, frozen mountain. That was my New Years Eve this year. Grouchy. Moody. Negative. Oh so negative.
I'm a huge fan of the Christmas/New Year's holiday! I love the decorating, the anticipation of Santa, the time with family and reflecting on what we've accomplished the past year. But for some reason, this transition into a new year was difficult for me.
Don't get me wrong. My kids are healthy, smart, well rounded, and everything I could ask for in my children. I'm still married to the same man for 18 years. I work at a job that I absolutely love and I've finally found what I want to be when I grow up. My life is good. So what's missing? Why the feelings of anger and resentment?
I believe a lot of it has to do with my writing. Or lack of it. You can see I haven't posted anything since September. Now that's pretty sad, if you ask me. Has it been because I don't feel like I have a lot to write about? I don't have any witty, amazing topic that will knock your socks off? I haven't finished my book (or barely tackled it) so there's nothing to discuss? Check, check, and check!
But as New Years Eve's go, I decided to come up with a few (very few) resolutions that I can live with and that will make me happy.
Resolution 1: Lose weight. Probably the top (or at least top 5) resolutions for everyone but I have until August 31st to lose 30 pounds for a free trip to Las Vegas in October for the All Samoan Golf Tournament. I've missed all of the tournaments so far and you know what? Golfing makes me happy so I am bound and determined to Get 'Er Done! Looking good also makes me happy so double whammy!
Resolution 2: Write on my blog at least twice a month if not more. If I have nothing stirring in my mind, then read some articles and come up with SOMETHING! Whether it's witty, thought provoking, controversial, WHATEVER. JUST WRITE!
Resolution 3: Keep working on my book. During this holiday break, I was able to sit for one day for six hours and just write. No interruptions, no distractions. I wrote 12 pages. Hey, only 100+ more pages to go, right? Not bad!
So, instead of being angry with the Grinch, like some of the people in Whoville were at first, I will think like Cindy Lou Who and remember that New Years Eve is not about the parties. It's not about the fireworks or the merriment. It's about being with the ones you love, being safe, and knowing that there are so many things to look forward to in life.